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Jared.......... I am 0n s0me 0f the same wavelength as y0u. Bef0re I g0 there..... Pers0nal talk ab0ut y0u. I feel I d0n't have much 0f any feelings f0r y0u. I feel betrayed by y0u t00 and s0me things that I'm just n0t getting ab0ut y0u. 0f c0urse there is n0 c0mparis0n with being betrayed with y0u and J0n. Y0u're n0t the sadistic, c0rrupt, desperate liar that he is. Y0u're just n0t 0ut t0 be the same predat0r. An0ther predat0r like him is the last thing I want t0 deal with. N0 c0mplaints against the predat0r that y0u aren't. I guess a pers0nal and simple reaquaintence with y0u and I. ........ "Law Abiding Citizen." It never registered as y0ur share at first. Gerard reminds me 0f Randy m0res0, and I am relieved that I d0n't have t0 w0rry as much ab0ut it f0r the claimant y0u are being. I think Randy is an0ther gr0ss vain man wh0 t00k himself way t00 far and gave himself way t00 much credit. N0t with the m0vie. He is m0re 0f a gr0ss gay sucker t0 J0n than I'll ever a sucker with J0n. Whatever sexual victimiziti0n game Randy c0uld have wanted t0 play I want n0thing t0 d0 with. Speaking 0f m0re rand0m pe0ple, I feel like my life will always be c0mmunistically quarantined t0 be damned and cursed with the same dumb bastard pe0ple. J0n is the 0ne wh0 is n0t c0ming d0wn 0ff himself. I hate the c0nstant threat that he has never st0pped being in wanting me t0 give int0 him and his bastard w0men. It is like he will never st0p demanding that I fight 0r beg f0r him. He will lead me 0n just t0 rub in h0w much 0ther w0men fight f0r him and h0w desperate they are f0r him and wanting t0 make it l00k like I am the 0ne wh0 is his s0re l0ser. Why weren't pe0ple ever g0ing t0 be called 0ut f0r the tyrant pigs and tyrant rapists they are. H0w c0uld s0 much tyranny be s0 0verl00ked and unacc0unted f0r? H0W C0ULD ANY0NE EVER THINK THEY HAD ANYTHING T0 PR0VE 0R STILL HAVE ANYTHING T0 PR0VE? Why c0uldnt pe0ple just see the rigs, c0rrupti0n, and c0ntr0lling pe0ple that s0me pe0ple were and are? H0w c0uld s0me pe0ple ever think s0me pe0ple were ever right t0 be the tyrants they were? I hate the sp0iled brat pig that J0n is. He breaks my heart in the m0st vi0lent way and expects me t0 beg 0r c0mpete f0r him and w0uld actually have the nerve t0 c0mpete in playing the victim. Speaking 0f, h0w 0utdated are s0me things? It was nice t0 have s0me kind 0f satisfacti0n t0 kn0w he must have suffered s0me t0rt0r0us death s0mewhere al0ng the way. S0metimes satisfacti0n like that calms me d0wn and it is J0n's 0wn fault f0r making s0me kind 0f sadist 0ut 0f me. There is still n0 c0mparis0n with his sadism vs. my sadism. Alth0ugh I d0n't catch 0nt0 s0me m0vies until I d0, I am reminded 0f "The Uninvited" and the sexually 0ffended l0ve child bad man they made 0ut 0f me. I didn't catch 0n t0 that m0vie until I did and that was s0 sick 0f J0n t0 put me in that character in r0le. I hate him f0r life f0r thinking he and his bastard w0men are my superi0rs. I will never f0rgive J0n, and he had that lethal injecti0n c0ming f0r him. He sh0uld have never been the tyrant and c0ntr0lling man that he was. He sh0uld have never kept my life threatened f0r that l0ng like that. I still d0n't have a clue what it is he is trying t0 pr0ve anym0re. I'm sick 0f the way he thinks he can trick me in his 0r my lust. I'm sick 0f the way he thinks he can beat, trick, manipulate, 0r win against me with his sex. He l00ks like a sadistic h0rny man wh0 has n0 self c0ntr0l and 0nly wants t0 be m0re sadistic because I will never fight 0r beg f0r him. I kn0w he will always be desperate t0 use my em0ti0ns against me. I have n0thing left t0 say.