Diego

Putting a spell on me again.... I really don't know where you came from or why you want me. I believe in your jealousy, violence, possessiveness, and your vindictive threats. Your love and hate does hurt. I feel liked I'm ravished and ravaged to be your slave wife. How much do you really love me, and how much is it just about your possessiveness and dominance? It hurts with the way I don't think you care about how I feel enough. I know that there is a certain way that it is unfair of me to expect something more of you and treat me a little better after I've had my own ways of cheating on you, leaving you, and being my own mean. While you did see the way that I was rejecting you and running from you as the sign of your win and knowing that I care; you take me as yours with you being the one to decide, while any choice that I could make is nonexistent. You further want to be vindictive and possessive. I am left with my own same impression that this is another bullshit and unfair relationship where you want to be that possessive and make me your wifey and where I am left with an impossible belief that we will ever meet again in person. That we will never be in a normal relationship. While there is a certain way you have me better won than other certain possessive men; it is still a square one of a miserable and unfair relationship. Is it that it is just you and I, or are you out to be a mega pig and further terrorize me with bigamy? polygamy? Nothing can change the fact you have HIV. You still have several small horror stories tied to you. I don't understand why you never let go or would mutually give up on me? I really can't bear to put up with another violent and unfair pig. I know it probably is something for me to expect or ask more of you and to have a better relief than that, but I do expect to be better won if you want to be that possessive.