Oh Canada

When violence begets violence what is the point? I guess writing about my rant is just for the purpose of my own peace of mind despite more consequences. I see the continued stalking tyrant my enemy is, and I wonder when they will ever realize the day as to why they have never and will never be successful, respected, or winning. I know I have blamed a lot of the shallow rapist Calvin tyranny on Jon. I still hate Jon to this day for his subjectification to lists of people. I hate the way some people just don't get the violent rapists they are and the way people would just intentionally want me to live with a violently breaking heart. I know I am the last person who should be violently dogged. However, it has been one DESPERATE contest after another. I hate being forced to lose to poor judgment and subjected or at the mercy of it. I have understood my anger for a long time and I will never forgive people for the jealous sore losers they are. YES I WILL CALL IT JEALOUSY AGAIN DESPITE ODDS OF VIOLENCE. I know some people are Gadhafi's. While some people believe in freedom and liberty like a saint, there are demons that will live to punish and kill those who disrespect and/or refuse their authority. While I know I have been lied about with "not being able to handle rejection," I know I'm not the guilty one. I am not the weak one. I hate the corruption, lies, and bullshit that has been constant because people don't know how to bite the bullet and accept when they are wrong. That is the jealousy. There is a difference between professionalism, taking time, and having integrity in keeping the truth protected, vs. corruption and being a sore loser. I know the terrible way some people have wanted to sell me out the shortest, and the rape that they get away with in judgment. I can tell some people have wanted me to live for my hate and amp up fire with fire. I really see myself as having the supermodel approach when it comes to judging someone: Don't judge, and one is to stay responsible over their own life. I will never forgive people for acting like they have me owned and testing me to their sense of supremacy. I will never forgive their nerve. I am happy to have bought the recent Oprah magazine, because I know she fights against codependency the most. On the cover she even had: "Be your own hero." It really is back to square one with Oprah though, because as much as I believe in independence, I know when I know I need to be rescued. The terror that entails is when having to deal with the way people want you to be helpless and vulnerable to the rescue challenge and having to deal with the people who feel they are worthy of being the rescuer. Some people just don't know how to respect liberty, freedom of choice, and independence enough. I continue to try to encourage myself against my self pity towards those who think they are worthy and press on for a better future.