Cheesy Music Talk

It isn't that it is all cheesy. It isn't all about general terms although some of my thoughts can still be taken in general ways. ............ I'm still lost with some things and feel left in the dark and that my crush is unfairly mysterious. ...Where do I begin? My thoughts about casual sex and Gaga and R. Kelly: https://youtu.be/WaCzYH9bkDY There is no denying that there are a lot of conquestial men out there. I know I have been the victim one too many times where men treat me as a conquest, that they have me owned, and whatever woman they are with "what is his is her's as well." I'll never get over half of the rape that I have experienced. Some men are fun and games while other men take their self way too far as if they were married or deserve to treat the woman like she is his slave. Is it that casual sex ever existed? Will there always be a threat that just because you sleep with someone that person's self worth is at stake? Their life is for the taking? That someone CAN take the other person for what their worth? Words cannot describe how angry I get over the structure that some men and some women especially have. Does Ashton Kutcher really feel he is holding up on "No Strings Attached," or has he become his own hypocrite? While not all thoughts are directed at Ashton, how could I forget the movie for what it was? Most of the time it is a man's punch line against a woman who doesn't want to feel taken advantage of. Could he or other men lose focus and out talk themselves and become the hypocrite when it was their defense from the start? Ashton really is a mixed story where he makes his and other's credit up. I really didn't like the ending of the movie for what it was because of the suggestiveness of the resolution (sad crack head love) and that she was the one who had to be aggressive for him. ........... That was a trail off of what other thoughts I am focused on. But continuing on is this: https://youtu.be/Gz2GVlQkn4Q Come with Me Now. I don't want to feel like I am ruining the song because I think it is too simple-minded. I know there is an emotional truth to it, but I just think it is cheesy and simple-minded. Beauty is skin deep and a mind is a terrible thing to waste. I have personally been killed as a beautiful bimbo before. It isn't that I don't know how it feels to be treated as a stereotype of "dumb blonds" or "stupid beauty." I really know how it feels to be overlooked with my good looks used against me. Although I haven't always shown it (I'm not the type that has anything to prove); it matters to me to be treated to an intellectual respect. I have never argued that my beauty itself should be treated as superior against a potential persons potentially valuable thoughts. The biggest matter is is the issue of control. It is wrong to use a person's beauty to manipulate or control another person. I just hate the way some people have never understood what their actions are in telling others what to do and to control another. People have the right to have their own values and their own cares. Besides a person keeping their own cares and values, they should also be treated to their own right of caring about their cares. Everyone has a different WAY of doing or seeing things. I know their are evil people in the world who want to be manipulative with their rape and the way they think they deserve something. I just wish people would stop being quick to judge something and be more questionable. It is so easy for people to fall through the cracks when a wrongful judge and wrongful control freak wants to take control of the situation. Their should simply be more protection for freedom and rights and that some people should see another person's actions for what they are. ............... Back to my thoughts of my crush. Right now, I stress him with: he loves me, he loves me not. I don't think I'm his ideal woman, and I don't think he is my ideal man. I know I care when he has interest in other women. I know we're not official and I have never felt right to be possessive of him like that. If anything, it is sometimes the reason I would withdraw or run from him, but it isn't that I don't care. I don't feel threatened as if he were putting my life on the line anymore. "Blurred lines," and "Come with me Now," is most of the relief that I need. He knows better than to let a man mark me and subject me to his mark, so it mostly seems. That man is not my maker. At the same time, he looks interested in other women. It isn't that he is completely sold on me or that I completely have him. I understand that. It's not that I don't care and it's not that there aren't other fish in the sea. .... I'm not completely understanding his spat with my Olga. It is kind of back to what I was saying from the start against conquestial actions. It isn't even that I've slept with the world. Some people wrongfully act like they have me owned. Some people wrongfully give themselves the credit, or are the liars or manipulative liars that they are. Thus, the planet is a tragic fucked up mess with little existence or intelligent life. It's called using your imagination you jerk. It isn't that I always even deny myself either in contacting others and that every last thing is full of nothing but bull shit. Every once in awhile I have my own honesty and will sometimes trust another person's honesty. I know I play and I don't always like to worry about how someone could take me and how much of a reality there is. Sometimes I care. It all depends.