Political Thoughts

I did make the choice to vote and I did vote for Gary Johnson. Besides knowing that electoral votes have a bigger say, and that I am still one person among the rest of the population votes, voting today gave me a peace of mind. I think that the liberty factor should be a more stressed issue with so many instances. Paul Ryan did score some points with me, but it wasn't enough for me to vote Republican...... Besides the main votes were other things to vote for. I made the choice to not vote for some people or ammendments at all. I did take note of one mudsling against Gary Johnson, but with my own political thinking is that it hasn't changed the math of crime rates with present and previous presidents. I do agree that when it comes to leadership, there is some responsibility the leader has himself when failures happen. Of course, they aren't fully responsible for bad times or happenings. Maybe a structured form of leadership or government can have some blamed reason or fault for when things go wrong. However, I think that things have already gone wrong with many fallacies by the present structured government and leadership. The next election is not until another 4 years and maybe than, I might invest more time and research. For now, that is all I care to do or say.

Just Random Thoughts

I'll start with politics. It has been awhile since I've actually talked about it. While there is a lot of pressure with this year's election, I'm just going to be a little casual about it anyway. I havn't set it in stone who I'm going to vote for. As a matter of fact, before exploring a little more info, I thought about comfortably and confidently to just not vote at all. With how life has gone and how I have summed up my own things to percieve and believe, it would make perfect sense to not vote at all. It is still an option to just not vote at all. I did look up this year's Libertarian candidate. I really could do more research on Gary Johnson, but I basically cut to the chase with some info and may look up more by the election. With how life is presently, I have a few issues of priority. He does remain vague about doing business and with the way he words himself, I could assume the usual cliche's that I have been assuming about objectification. His viewpoint is that he does want the U.S. to improve it's economy and his preferable route is choosing to whatever increases the economy rather than living by strict traditional ideals. I'm sure he doesn't believe in anarchy. I don't think I've ever seen a Libertarian candidate win. If he did win, one of the main facts of the matter is that his political party is Libertarian. Therefore, when being held accountable over any issue, he would be held an accountable Libertarian through the Media, Other congress members, and other people in his party. Of course his party isn't the only thing to be held accountable with, but it is one of the main factors. With how he has his views on the business world, it does seem threatening. There is no symbolism in his personal life that makes my choice. When he did mention his issues in being a Libertarian, they were the main, regular, present, and cliche issues. I was hoping as a Libertarian he would be more stressful of the role in Liberty and the fair balance the political party would bring. Maybe he could be too jaded to recognize how important liberty is and that it has seemed to be fading through the years. I may have a little more political talk later and may put in some 2cents with Obama and Romney, but I just feel like talking about Johnson right now. .....................
Rape.rape.rape. It is a big issue in the media right now. Although I could chuckle anyday over Nirvana's "Rape Me," song, rape is still something I take seriously. Because of the heart of the ocean, I may be shady and not always be personally recognized over matters of rape.
I don't have anything to say about Jon or his drama "as the Jon turns," right now............I am picking up on how some people are putting math together through the media for their dominate perspective. I will only go so far in hearing the thoughts of others. With the baby's father, I have already had my own perspective and have left it at that. With Jon, I can see how some math is being put together through the matrix. I am also taking note of other signs and info. I don't have anything to say that I've already said and the only thing I will mention is my news reporter view that Jon is giving more info in a confirmative way about what he thinks. There are no new emotions to deal with. I still see myself on my own and if anyone right now is claiming that I am with them, I would add them to the rape list. For the record, I know Jon has not physically raped me in person. As for any other sexual crime, I've already had a few things to say and will leave it at that. .......................
Besides my normal daily routines, this week I have done additional things where I have the temporary satisfaction that I need. I've applied to several jobs and different types of jobs. I still have a little financial monthly relief where I can still save some amount of money. The pain is still there where the amount of money I receive is nowhere near comparing to what I would have expected at this point. I'm still mad at the world, mad at the time it is wasted, and angry at the pathetic leadership that seems to intentionally and purposefully have me fall through the cracks (amongst savage crackheads) where my life is the way it is. I still leave myself blameless and don't know what the future holds.

Random thoughts

Today was a flop. Maybe it was because I had forgotton to give people a facebook invite. lol. no. At this particular craft show, I had sold some of my stuff last year. I don't know whether I should take it as being snubbed by this particular community as a whole, or, maybe it is just the bad economy. I will probably skip this one next year............
I was snubbed by a past friend, but didn't mind too much. I had no other choice but to be a little flaky with some people.
I have one more festival to try in November and this one is new as well. After that, it is up to etsy, ebay, and MTC. I'm looking aggressively for more jobs starting now.
Other than present news, there is not a whole lot of other news going on. Well actually, my sister's husband is out of jail and they have been moving this entire week. They will most likely be officially out by today or tmw. So, it is good news. She has a house warming party tmw, but I havn't decided if I will show up or not. I know I really don't have to be there to celebrate............

Blood and Hemmorage

Jon, there are still a few things I've said that I meant. And despite feeling pointless about saying anything about anything, I feel like being talkative anyway. I know you hate me. I know you hate when I'm either arrogant or confident as well. I just can't help but think of you when I hear Lenny Kravitz "American Woman," song. ~You're no good for me, I'm no good for you, I'm going to look you right straight in the eye and tell you what I'm going to do.........~  bye bye so many times..... I don't want to ruin the song with so much symbolism though. Sometimes, it could just be generalized. I also feel a little bit of a hypocrit. With so much structure and systematics of it all, one dream thought is to move to Canada and be a Canadian. They've already shown a little support, but it is a big idea to not think too much of right now. Really am trying to avoid war, but with so much structure mixed with so little structure, some battles and wars are simply unavoidable......
I watched "The Hangover 2," yesterday...... Not sure where Mike Jones went. I havn't been keeping tabs in the media. It seems like there could be someone with me right now, but not 100% sure who and not trusting anything. ..... Back to Hangover 2...... one idea is the illustration in "The Watchmen," where the Adrian guy uses nuclear warfare to have split the Jon character into several pieces. Maybe it is just you being a bisexual polygamist and you may either be getting tortured or someone has a difficult time in trying to fathom you. I know myself it could be difficult in fathoming you. I stay anorexic to any drama or any characters. If you seriously did think I was a "tranny," it looks like you are fascist with transvestites. Do I believe Kim is one? Not really. I would believe it to see it. Her real gender isn't going to change anything about what I think of her. Despite whatever is going on with the NWO, I stick with personal issues and damn the people who would want to control me with the NWO. It is another impossible circumstance. My assumption is that you are bisexual and the following assumption would be rather than believe what you say when you trash the transvestite community, to assume you think they are the best of both worlds. Some people are born certain ways and are not intentionally trying to be X-rated. I'm just so fed up with so much X-ratedness and sexual abuse in my world. Maybe you were raped. Maybe despite the movie and said media drama, there is nothing, but there is more awkwardness with you. You have been so two-faced and such a creep to have been in favor of some stalkers, sex offenders and sexual predators including my dad. I can see you're two-faced with him too. But, you are too much of a creep and predator altogether. I don't trust you. I don't trust you in so many ways and on so many levels. I don't know why you do play the role of the white knight sometimes. Maybe you are seductive and emotionally manipulative for your own controlling reasons and maybe you don't want to lose me. You're just too much of a creep altogether.
Another assertion with who I am: I don't always believe you have to try something to have an opinion. I don't believe I have to be experimental with everything. Of a lot of examples, I'll apply the philosophy to the idea of drugs. I wanted to try out Marijuana. I didn't mind it. I can live without it, and especially if I am serious about wanting to get a job. I don't have to try other harder drugs to make up my mind to knock it or not knock on it. I simply don't want to take some drugs period. Sexually, I'm confident to know I don't have to try everything to know whether or not I want it. I think I'm just too overtested and provoked way too much by so many people to have to say it to you the way I say it. I'm sick of being tested and I'm sick of the arrogant power trips people let themselves have that they are the "superior judge." I don't know how long I will be living alone or if I'm cursed to live alone for the rest of my life. If that is how life is; than I just deal with it and hope that maybe eventually some people would recognize me for who I really am.

As the Sarah Turns

As the Sarah turns, she gets stuck in Burmuda from time to time, and this is a time where she is in Burmuda.......
Back to first person....
I think I will start with Lance. Right now, it is possible that he could be trying to get across that he is being a senator for Mitzi's father, John. I was initially sold on the idea that Lance was in the house to represent himself. Before I go further, facts are facts. If someone takes credit for something that they do not have, in my world, they are called a W-I-G-G-E-R. There are several definitions or reasons to be called one, but wrongful credibility is one of them. It is impossible to make love and not war and I hate the idea of being a war monger. I never have and still do not see myself as John's inferior. Despite the thesis of Mad Men, John can't buy himself a name that I will intentionally perceive. I know he is not a millionaire but when there are literal advantages and at least having a job and income is one of them; I will not let him use that factor against me. In furthering that, Child support is child support is just that. Technically, he is not paying it yet. I have noticed how judgemental he is and also the bully he is. I have already been offended by both his demonizing and bullying. My intelligence will not be undermined and neither will my sense of character. If he thinks he will have me manipulated with child support into thinking that I should be somehow enslaved or given the label as a hooker for recieving child support, he has another thing coming to him. If he wants to demonize me more for coming off as such a bitch; it is a result of his own consequences with how he has already been from the start. Call me pancakes; I don't care.
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With Jon S, it really is the same story that is just making its rounds in different ways. I think I may have been picking up and learning more things. He seems to be more violent and deadly. I don't know what or how to fix this. He has many approaches. One of them is threatening with who and how many people he has some sort of sexual relations and even adding bisexual. Another approach is that of a game of sucker. Sometimes his games of being a sucker can be more lethal than others, but I have a hard time believing that adults and especially an adult like him would play sucker games. He is a comedian. He is just unfair in so many ways and in this instance, it isn't fair for him to play sorts of games and his sucker games and be lethal and serious at the same time. He has some kind of expectation for me to either keep playing games or for me to allow him to take advantage. It just isn't fair to be serious and joking at the same time. Of course it isn't right for him at all to be lethal about anything either. How could he be expecting of me to take him seriously after all of his lies, games, tricks, and jokes? How could he want to be taken seriously, trusted, or believed about anything?
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There are a few other men I think about. I don't have a lot to say right now. ................

Live Strong.....Live.....Live Strong.......Live and feel like I am sometimes dying

Why not run around and brainstorm a little with what is presently going on in the media........
Right now, it is possible that I have two cockblocks. Not saying anything about the one, but with the other, I'll roll a little more with Lance. Currently, if there was any sort of seriousness, he would be a walking contradiction on my end to go for him. The fact of the matter depends on just how self-righteous of a person I am...... Lucky for him, I am as I look: a person who is no less vulnerable or in a position to be desperate. ha. not really funny. If it wasn't for his motto though....... Of course it is more than wonderful that he was very charitable in his fight against cancer. I think he still probably is charitable despite setback. I wonder if he was banned from all races or just a particular one? What a horrifying feeling of the spotlight he must be in right now. I've never claimed to be a drug expert but it sounds like the drug he was on could have been some sort of steroid.......... But, his motto helped me through some hard times and depression. It didn't really resolve a whole lot but it helped me get a better grip on myself.........
I may eventually share some personal opinionated thoughts on drugs overall, but right now, I don't care to talk much about it........
The state I'm in right now is both spontaneous and cautious. Like the typical woman, I could have any emotional happening at any time.
Today is a day where I feel more excited for my upcoming craft festivals. Still a lot of work to go. I'm happy for some new ideas but wish that I had more time to go for some ideas that I've had. I can only make so much at one time, so I can only go for some projects. I'll still probably learn more projects this winter, but as for the festivals, just not enough time to do more.
Russia comes and goes and I obviously still do not know everything there is to know about Russia. With how some things have gone, they make it a little more impossible to get along. Therefore, when feeling either further tested or controlled, I feel a little frustrated and have a bit of a problem. I am very much agreeable on the concept of austerity. Some days are easier than others. The thing is, my future is up in the air. There are no definite specifics to have a specific drill of austerity. It should be possible to save and be austere for the future itself, but there are no specifics. I couldn't see who was getting a little bossy though when there were demands coming from somewhere saying that they were expecting growth. Having money is not a matter to them. For some reason or another, my personal growth looks like it is an actual matter or care of Russia or some Russian person. I do and I don't feel bothered by an expectation. I understand expectations myself and my own expectations. I feel a little perplexed and a little embarassed if I do have some kind of heroic or superwoman expectation. It can be taken as a compliment, but heroism feels awkward for me. Russia has too many gaps, too many people I don't know, too many things I don't know, and still very mysterious.
All the random thoughts for now.

Random thoughts of the day

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I think I will start with Jim Carey. I'm sure I had deleted him from twitter. I am unsure of a lot of things with him. Sometimes, life moves so much all at once, my memory is not always the greatest. I think he does want there to be some sort of peace but the picture with the specific Jim Carey is still unclear. I can tell he took me seriously. I appreciated the dignity in that and had something further to say after that to have a two-sided conversation and say what he is really thinking.
I havn't picked up on all of the media. Not sure of what was going on with Jenny McCarthy when she threatened me. It could be some mistakes in arbitrage or maybe I was never mistaken at all....
There is also a different assumption Jim gives that he is gay, but as the typical actor, I really wouldn't have a huge belief in having a serious relationship.
With some of his movies and the characters he represents, I wonder if he sees himself as a sex symbol with his acting history? Maybe that is why he would create some further appeal or make some kind of directives at me. I do have "Yes, Man," in my Netflix that I am going to watch again, but Jim could be just as mysterious as the next guy.
Could Jim have some shares with Romney? Are either of them meant to be represented in "Pyro," the Kings of Lean song? What is it with that character getting beat to death? The full story is not there.....?
That was something I have actually been wondering for a little bit.
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Although I'm not an Atheist, I like the logic to this urban dictionary definition:
Chik-Fil-Atheist
A person who loves Chik-Fil-A, but not God, and is therefore pissed that Chik-Fil-A is closed on Sundays.
Even though I'm an avowed Chik-Fil-Atheist, I tried to go to Chik-Fil-A on Sunday again. Goddamn it!

I don't think I need to make any further elaborations, I'll let it speak for itself, but I just like the sense of logic to this one.
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I have a few good things going on now that I am happy about. I know how life goes, so that is just another thing that I will leave at that.
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Despite the previous statement, there is still a lot of heartbreak in my life. There are still a lot of things that make no sense and that just seem to not disappear. Like an endless cliff.
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I have been thinking about the concept of capitalist punishment and the technicalities of it all. Do some people ever feel justice or justified? Are some crimes ever dealt with when such a large sum of money or money maker is at stake? It is too much of a dangerous idea to brainstorm or think of further ways to elaborate with the idea.
Jon isn't the only person I am thinking of on this one. But since I'm talking about him anyway, I will continue to make communication clear: I clearly do not know what is going on on his end anymore. He has not completely gone away and Comedy central is back. I just may have to watch his show anyway, but I'm not making a whole lot of effort in paying attention to him.

Dear Charlie

Honestly Charlie, there is a lot of negativity on my end this week. I'm not 100% sure who I am talking to. Right now I'm choosing to talk to the Charlie Sheen.  Even some commercials make me lean towards that perspective. Anyway, while you do not present yourself as being violent, I take the sleep deprivation as very violent actions. This is an instance where life makes no sense. You're the one who is supposedly on house arrest, and besides that, you have been a BSer from the start and still are. How could someone give you the power to cause sleep deprivation like that? I really have thought the close to impossible with that issue on some nights. (Is my house being gassed? Is there something in the food or water that would cause me to be sleep deprived?) Maybe it is just more BS on your end and you happen to know that some nights I have insomnia, so you want the picture to look like you are the one who has the power and is the punisher. It is against my will to be sleep deprived. I really wasn't paying a whole lot of attention to the show this week. I think there will probably be a repeat and watch it then. Whatever "therapy" or "fix" sleep deprivation is supposed to resolve, I'm not sold on it at all. I just think it is more BS. Anyway, I'm still curious about you and will keep watching your show.