As the Sarah Turns

As the Sarah turns, she gets stuck in Burmuda from time to time, and this is a time where she is in Burmuda.......
Back to first person....
I think I will start with Lance. Right now, it is possible that he could be trying to get across that he is being a senator for Mitzi's father, John. I was initially sold on the idea that Lance was in the house to represent himself. Before I go further, facts are facts. If someone takes credit for something that they do not have, in my world, they are called a W-I-G-G-E-R. There are several definitions or reasons to be called one, but wrongful credibility is one of them. It is impossible to make love and not war and I hate the idea of being a war monger. I never have and still do not see myself as John's inferior. Despite the thesis of Mad Men, John can't buy himself a name that I will intentionally perceive. I know he is not a millionaire but when there are literal advantages and at least having a job and income is one of them; I will not let him use that factor against me. In furthering that, Child support is child support is just that. Technically, he is not paying it yet. I have noticed how judgemental he is and also the bully he is. I have already been offended by both his demonizing and bullying. My intelligence will not be undermined and neither will my sense of character. If he thinks he will have me manipulated with child support into thinking that I should be somehow enslaved or given the label as a hooker for recieving child support, he has another thing coming to him. If he wants to demonize me more for coming off as such a bitch; it is a result of his own consequences with how he has already been from the start. Call me pancakes; I don't care.
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With Jon S, it really is the same story that is just making its rounds in different ways. I think I may have been picking up and learning more things. He seems to be more violent and deadly. I don't know what or how to fix this. He has many approaches. One of them is threatening with who and how many people he has some sort of sexual relations and even adding bisexual. Another approach is that of a game of sucker. Sometimes his games of being a sucker can be more lethal than others, but I have a hard time believing that adults and especially an adult like him would play sucker games. He is a comedian. He is just unfair in so many ways and in this instance, it isn't fair for him to play sorts of games and his sucker games and be lethal and serious at the same time. He has some kind of expectation for me to either keep playing games or for me to allow him to take advantage. It just isn't fair to be serious and joking at the same time. Of course it isn't right for him at all to be lethal about anything either. How could he be expecting of me to take him seriously after all of his lies, games, tricks, and jokes? How could he want to be taken seriously, trusted, or believed about anything?
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There are a few other men I think about. I don't have a lot to say right now. ................