Why not run around and brainstorm a little with what is presently going on in the media........
Right now, it is possible that I have two cockblocks. Not saying anything about the one, but with the other, I'll roll a little more with Lance. Currently, if there was any sort of seriousness, he would be a walking contradiction on my end to go for him. The fact of the matter depends on just how self-righteous of a person I am...... Lucky for him, I am as I look: a person who is no less vulnerable or in a position to be desperate. ha. not really funny. If it wasn't for his motto though....... Of course it is more than wonderful that he was very charitable in his fight against cancer. I think he still probably is charitable despite setback. I wonder if he was banned from all races or just a particular one? What a horrifying feeling of the spotlight he must be in right now. I've never claimed to be a drug expert but it sounds like the drug he was on could have been some sort of steroid.......... But, his motto helped me through some hard times and depression. It didn't really resolve a whole lot but it helped me get a better grip on myself.........
I may eventually share some personal opinionated thoughts on drugs overall, but right now, I don't care to talk much about it........
The state I'm in right now is both spontaneous and cautious. Like the typical woman, I could have any emotional happening at any time.
Today is a day where I feel more excited for my upcoming craft festivals. Still a lot of work to go. I'm happy for some new ideas but wish that I had more time to go for some ideas that I've had. I can only make so much at one time, so I can only go for some projects. I'll still probably learn more projects this winter, but as for the festivals, just not enough time to do more.
Russia comes and goes and I obviously still do not know everything there is to know about Russia. With how some things have gone, they make it a little more impossible to get along. Therefore, when feeling either further tested or controlled, I feel a little frustrated and have a bit of a problem. I am very much agreeable on the concept of austerity. Some days are easier than others. The thing is, my future is up in the air. There are no definite specifics to have a specific drill of austerity. It should be possible to save and be austere for the future itself, but there are no specifics. I couldn't see who was getting a little bossy though when there were demands coming from somewhere saying that they were expecting growth. Having money is not a matter to them. For some reason or another, my personal growth looks like it is an actual matter or care of Russia or some Russian person. I do and I don't feel bothered by an expectation. I understand expectations myself and my own expectations. I feel a little perplexed and a little embarassed if I do have some kind of heroic or superwoman expectation. It can be taken as a compliment, but heroism feels awkward for me. Russia has too many gaps, too many people I don't know, too many things I don't know, and still very mysterious.
All the random thoughts for now.
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