Lots of Random Thoughts

Such an anxious time of year. Too much to do with a lot of complications and anxiety. I am doing the same routine of sitting and looking pretty and knitting with my yarn balls, but sometimes, I don't always feel so pretty. I am a typical busy mom who doesn't even have a job yet and is overstressed and busy already. Some stresses will go away, but some remain which includes finding a job....... A lot of drama is up in the air. While I did run into a new man; he isn't putting me out of my misery enough. It was what was being said and his responsiveness that just feel I'm being lied to right now. I can't stand the way I feel lied to or left to wonder. If I never hear from him again, that is one way of knowing, but I'd rather him just put me out of my misery by being straightforward about it. I'm keeping him up in the air and there is other drama up in the air, and a lot of it, I don't have much to say..............I have several movies on my list yet to see and some of them I'm not too excited to see. I am seeing a loud signal coming from one of my enemies. I really do see Bob D'. as wanting to play cute with me with a predator/victim game. He's not even Ron! Bob D'. is Bilbo Baggins!, a harmless cute little man who just wants to sit back and smoke his pipe in the shire. Keep smoking your pipe Bob and avoid a history that has never happened. You deserve no consequences........... Bob, whatever your actions really are in the present time, YES, we are still enemies. Unless I'm somehow forced to seize your shire and make a showdown.....Bob, are you really on your shire? Bob are you somewhere in the hills or a bunker ready and waiting to shoot? Heck, you could catch me innocently playing along as a fellow hobbit smelling some flowers and shoot anyway and put any bull on me you want to. You know you and your gangster "hobbits" eventually will. This is what enemies sometimes do: avoid or deny a defiance until they can no more. I don't know how much your hobbit clock could affect my real clock Bob. You may fool others, but I'll never forget the times I have been wronged.......... Bob, if you want to live peacefully in your hobbit world, let us just hope I get a job soon, and I get one that will satisfy my real life demands enough. The original demands of MY practicality and reason. And you know what? If I did luck out and get a large wealth and money, I WOULD LET MYSELF HAVE IT. God bless me Bob.