No Hard Feelings

For now, anyway. Life is a little bit of a whirlwind, but I am ok. I'll do the man drama first. I am mostly at a square one with a few interests and crushes. If there is any feeling I am left to feel with Ben, I feel a little bit of comfort and console. I have no hard feelings against him right now and hope that I won't have another enemy to make out of someone. When it comes to defining "feeling alone," or being "left alone," it is a very sketchy and abstract concept. I am personally the type that likes to be independent and in control over my life. While there are times I feel so alone in the world; it doesn't necessarily mean that I give up on my independence or would let a person take control of my life. When it comes to fighting against feeling left alone; there are very few people that just don't understand the right kind of approach to have. It isn't that I would even obligate or force a person to be with me, whether I am wanted or unwanted from some people. The ones that could want to show they care don't always know how. I am not against a sexual connection, but connections don't always have to be sexual either. ... I don't have a lot to say in regards to a few other men. I'm not close to a lot of them and don't know a lot about them. I feel a little bit of a mixed signal from one particular. I know I am interested in him and getting to know him a little more, but I'm not 100% sure what is really going on on his end. I think there is a certain way he means to give me a compliment right now, but I am second guessing his interest because it came from a messenger. In all honesty, I'm not really into the messenger and some of his choice approach. ... There may be another guy, Anthony who is interested in me, but I don't believe in his interest that much. I could see myself being friends with him is some ways, but I don't entirely trust him and see what some of his tags are and other things about him to be highly suspicious of. He has a friendly and mean betrayal in some ways. I can give him the credit that there are some ways that he knows how to be an adult about it, (but not entirely ~ha ha~).... While I feel I have a little relief in the man drama dept., I still feel I don't have anyone right now, and I am not going to stress too much over being single. I can recompose myself and keep living my usual busy way. Life is very busy and hectic right now and the extra time that I can have is a benefit to me. Good things and stressful things going on, but I am glad to have had a good weekend in making money and am glad to have some other small blessings and happenings going on right now.