Why Cindy Crawford Can't Save Me

There are 2 Cindy's I have come across in a more personal way than other Cindy's. The teacher I have met in person, Cindy Crawford through Bollywood. The teacher I had was from a long time ago. While I feel I have buried the hatchet with her in some ways, some things can never be forgotten. I know she has been talked about in Bollywood, but I've stayed quiet for a long time. She amongst other teachers were at a high level of an offense to me. They were cross-talkers, intruders, and even molesters in some instances. My time, money, and goals were wasted with their terrible education. It was a very big deal to me. Even after going to private school, I wasn't going to a community college for a second BS and AS for nothing. I can't regret the anger I had with the rights they gave their self. Cindy in particular had a particular punchline with me that I'm sure myself and anyone else can agree with. HOWEVER she was her own worst hypocrite with "You can't express a dominance you don't have." I agreed it was plain rape to do so. Although this teacher had another title or two, she still gave herself too much of a right with me. Besides her cross talking me it was like Maggie's Bollywood cross talking me in a worst unfair way too. I just can't regret the anger that I had. It is a short story but the punchline included in the short story "You can't express a dominance you don't have," is still a mantra on my end to this day. While I believe Cindy Crawford's Bollywood has the same anger with the teacher and I; she has the most obvious fame, fortune, and to the other ones it matters most: beauty contest. I know I had times of being mean to Cindy, but to feel flattered by her super model on occasion can feel somewhat flattering and life saving to an extent. Sometimes, when I get most angry because either a man or woman is being too arrogant or dominate against my truth and my respect or keeping my truth alone blackmailed, lied against, and subjected, or times I feel interrogated or molesting questioned, bossed around in any manner, BEING flattered with her fame and fortune can make me feel a little less alone. I know I've known some things on my own. While most accountabilities are too extremely low and inadequate, it matters some to know I'm not as buried alive although I feel like a blow up doll and buried alive no matter what I do. I don't believe in anarchy but I just hate when accountabilities are being fed. I cry over lying gossiping cancer yet I contradict myself when I fight for some kind of accountability to be had. It feels so molesting and like I'm always going to be some blow up doll some ways or another. Some chemo never seems to help because when you want to save yourself one way, you can't save yourself in another. I have had a long term anger against such piggish and controlling accountability and the ways people just don't or won't understand their actions for what they are and the unfairness they have. The ways people don't get how forceful the are and what is to account of that? The way I've already accounted myself as a sewer where all I know is shit and piss. … Taking Cindy Crawford on another personal level. She can't save me because she has some structure. I don't know the details of it, but the teacher's structure was definitely not fair. It's like everyone can be president. Its a fight of credibility and values that not everybody has the same eye to eye with or agree over what is valued. Some moments of people fighting tooth and nail of credibility are terrifying because you know what they are getting at with what they want to do with the credit. Values: What agendas come first? what rules? what stories? what matters? There is more to the control issue than just "you can't express a dominance you don't have." Part of my cancer is the way I have my mind made up and people want to switch to another subject or footage to want to control me with. I have suffered extremely poor Butch accountability when someone just has to have their way with me. The next speak of the devil is the way her daughter looks like Stacy and the obvious trap where I'm being set up to fail with Stacy's Butch bondage idiot. I don't even see myself as trapped by Cindy, but whether I have the choice or not to look like Cindy in the arbitrage, someone does want to put me under a bus and give Stacy an excuse to put her murderous rapey hands on me. It is a more competent way to make her my child, but what I want more than anything is to have the right to my restraining order against Stacy. I'm not primarily seeking to make her my embarrassed molested, I am seeking the most given justice. After the things she has done and other questionable things she has done in the arbitrage in putting my daughter's life on the line she should do years in jail at this point. She needs to be an embarrassed person for being an obsessive stalker and having wanted to be the judge and choice maker of my life and a restraining order. Of course she wouldn't need that once she has gone to jail. If I had the fair and rightful choice of my revenge, it is what Stacy needs to get. Get it in the mind and have that happen in life.